I have reached page 84 of my rewrite and crippling doubt has kicked in. As far as the actual content goes, I'm pretty pleased with it, but I'm worried that it's all been useless (I know, logically, that it isn't - even if I end up not using this material, it's helped character development, world building, focus etc.)
My problem is that the part I'm writing at the moment just feels like an enormous info dump. It's important - very important - but nothing much is really happening. I'm also starting to feel that including all this exposition as it's happening will make the future less interesting. In the original, I quite enjoyed having this element as a bit of a mystery, and I'm starting to think that I might go in that direction again.
The thing is - or the things are - I want to jump forward, if that's the direction I'm going to take it, and start from that point, but I know it's useful to continue writing out my exposition, but I'm getting bored by it because I'm doubting it's usefulness. The other thing is, or really a continuation of the same thing is, every time I sit down to write - something, anything - my character development is such that is almost always impinges on the larger plot, so if I jump ahead and write where I want, I'm going to miss out on a lot of that.
Eh bleh bleh.
But then if I do my magic time jump, where will it end? How much of what I've got now do I include, if any? I've said it before and I'm sure I'll say it again - I'm a sucker for backstory, but it's tripped me up and sent me faceplanting the pavement, and now my nose hurts.
I often find myself going around in circles; wondering how to make my story better, changing it in my head, and I always find myself back at the exact point I started at. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not... It makes me dizzy, that's for sure!
What am I doing? But actually??
In other news, I am rediscovering my love of Kelly Clarkson.
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